Blog 17: Farewell to a family member and hello 100kgs LOST!

I start off on a sad note after 16 and a half years the Cuvello family loses it's most valued member the one that always had unconditional love for us all, never judged us, never argued with us and was always there for us when we needed her.
I am of course talking about our dog Butch, a Staffard-Shire Bull-Terrier cross Bull-Terrier, I personally made the call about a week ago to have her put down, after all this time she had developed arthritis in all her legs, she was crippled by the time last week had turned up and I suggested it's time we do this, turns out today when the vet turned up she was also paralyzed in her legs and going blind.

I called mum today to confirm it had been done and she told me how the vet put her down after hanging up I cried for a while at work, left to go outside and cried a little more, while walking from the end of the street I began to cry again and when I got to the front door I fell to the ground unable to control myself, seeing her kennel and knowing she isn't there anymore ... it hits you hard when you finally realise she isn't there anymore. I stepped out back for a few minutes before dinner and said some words, those words were something along the lines of "I love you and I will miss you Butch, I am forever indebted to your unconditional love, you never judged me and were always there for me no matter how you felt you always put me first".

Lest we forget those whom we love and adore.

Hi All,

So what's been happening recently? Well I've been sick, I've had really bad stomach cramping which started off with a heck of a lot of stomach swelling which caused me not to eat for a few weeks. During these two weeks I lost 7kgs (15lbs) which has taken my total weight loss to 100kgs! *WOOHOO* my main goal now achieved and it's been 23 months since I had the operation, not that it's a competition but I think I'm in the running for gold.

http://i.imgur.com/bOmI8.jpg

The certificate I was given for reaching my goal :)

So what's next? August 7th I meet a plastic surgeon for quotes on having the body lift operations (this should be interesting) from there we can move forward and prepare for that.

So back to my stomach swelling issues, I had a gastroscopy which shows a stitch had come loose that may have caused the swelling but isn't the reason why my abdomen is cramping with stabbing pains, so I've had 3 blood samples, stool samples and now a CT scan (results should be in tomorrow), currently I'm on tremadole and panamax for the pain and working because I've ran out of sick leave, I'm running on fumes at the moment and can't keep this up much longer, I need an answer as to why I'm sick but my surgeon doesn't know yet, he's hoping the scan will show something.. anything.

As you have read Black Hayet has broken up (my band) Adam the singer (the alcoholic) has decided to take it upon himself to tell people the reason I had a go at him was because I was going through personal problems. This guy has just taken the gold for biggest jerk in my life right now, for starters he can't admit he has a problem then secondly blames someone else for his wrong doing, makes me feel my choice was the right one to make, he's out of my life for good and moving forward who knows what it will bring, but it will be better than what has occurred.

The next blog will have the report from my currently issues plaguing me and also a little something special depending how the weekend treats me ;)

Thanks for reading
Age.

Blog 16 - Life isn't all sunshine and honey, you will get stung and sunburned!

Hi All,

So since the last blog last week so much has happened since, I got rejected from asking a pretty girl out, my band broke up and I've lost a good mate to his alcoholism.

The band I was in for over a year has broken up, this saddens me because we had a great chance of going somewhere, main problem though? An alcoholic singer who causes trouble everywhere he goes, he has warrants out for his arrest and would be lucky to leave the state for travel.
He believes he is going to marry this Canadian bird of his and get himself duel citizenship, I would be surprised if she stuck around, she left the first time because of his drinking, nothing has changed since she has been away.

So anyway he and I go out Saturday night for a 30th party, turns out that before he starts drinking he's annoying the hell out of me, instead of allowing me to move seats to start a conversation with a few lady friends he grabs me in a headlock and points to the one with the largest breasts, check them out mate.... no need for details here so ill skip to where i shove him off me and tell him to get a life.
"Hey why are you holding me back? Let me go and talk to her", to a reply of nah you can't leave me here alone I'm bored when are we moving onto the drinking place?...

Fast forward a few hours, he's now bleed me dry of my cash and himself and I say, "Nothing left, can't afford anymore drinks mate", to a disgusting reply of "Oh that's ok I'll show you how to get free beer!"
He then proceeds to walk up to tables and drink others beers in front of them.
I am both disgusted and angered by this, before a fight starts I bolt downstairs and get some cash, order some more drinks and give them to everyone he drank from apologising for him. I'm very lucky I never got my head kicked in at this time.
So he's been eying out this rather "gay" individual and throws his jacket at him spilling all the drinks on the table, before his rather large and tall "boyfriend" comes charging in I picked up his jacket turned around and threw it at him then grabbed him by the collar and dropped him on the ground, shoved my knee into his ribs and started foaming at the mouth, I can't repeat what was said but I was not very happy with what he had did.


After the scream-a-thon was finished I got up and walked out the place and caught a taxi home.

Turns out he started a fist fight with a friend of his trying to keep him in check, that's how he treats his friends hey? Great mate that one.

So with the above two examples what did I learn this week?

Three things.

1. I am too damn kind for my own good and need to push back on people who do not appreciate what I have to offer.
2. I refuse to help anyone when they won't help themselves.
3. I reflected on the people in my life and came to the realisation that I am happy with the current people I have around me in my life.

To expand on point 3.

I've mentioned Scott in past posts, I've known him the longest, 10 years now, he helped me through all of this with some great words of wisdom through his own life experience.
Zane I've known for 8 years and even from WA he can still support and comfort me in my darkest times, just talking to him and his suggestions helped me through these changes.
Tracy I've known her for about 4 years now, she is the friend that was ready to go into battle for me when I turned down my this work colleague, her words are some I have never heard before, they brought me back to the reality of that it is not always me that is the cause of these problems but you will learn in life that in fact no matter how much you want to see the good in everyone, some people are just in it for themselves.

All of this should have happened to me 10 years ago not now when I'm almost 30, it's harder to deal with these problems because well the ignorance of youth would have been a warm welcome.

I am so thankful to have 3 very close people in my life who are there for me when I need them most.
My family of course also helped as they do, they put perspective on my experience.
"You will meet people in life, some will stay, most will pass on by, those who stay treat them well for they will be there for you at your darkest times, and you had better be there for them during theirs".

This has been such a huge life experience for me and I am so thankful that this happened, I am beating my fear of rejection and realising that there are people in my life who can help me through it.

I am so very thankful right now :)

Thanks for reading.
Adrian.